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I'm going to start by saying when people make it to the success they were trying to pursue in their lives; it often seems to everyone on the outside looking in that POOF they've just all of a sudden arrived. The story of how they made it to their destination is often told after the fact. I seem to be doing the opposite. I seem to be for some reason telling my story as I arrive to where ever this strange life of mine would have me be. I'm at the end of my 28 day stay at the mental health respite. I check out tomorrow. Do you think I'm leaving with a housing plan? If you guessed no, you guessed right. Show's you've been paying attention to the fact that I obviously have no idea how to work this housing system and nobody is able to give me any clear information.
Now I've been researching and working with some amazing peer specialist and my treatment center. we've come up with some ways to keep me out of the shelter that I was assigned. I'm definitely not going back there. That place broke me mentally and I've been through some shit. I used to say you can drop me in the middle of Bagdad and I'll make it do what it do. I have come to find out that, that's not true. I've found a situation that I cannot, will not and shouldn't have to adapt to. Being in that place showed me how far I've come because there was a time in my life long ago now that I was the dirty drug addict screaming to herself in the street.
I was broken. I didn't care where I slept and I had no standards for myself. Nobody could have told me 20 years later I wouldn't be living like that anymore and that I would be becoming a lone traveler and that I could find peace and happiness within my own self despite the tragedies that continued to happen to me. Nobody could've told me that I would still find a way to rise. As of April first I have been in NYC for 10 months and in that time I have written and published 6 books and am currently working on my 7th. I graduated from my internship program in which I interned at a homeless shelter for 2 months while being homeless myself Go Figure. That's kinda it for now.
There is a bookstore interested in having me come and do my 1st book signing with them. I'm very nervous about this since my living situation is shakey. I'm just happy that I'm not blaming anyone and I understand that my poor decisions have led me into many unfortunate situations in my life. I also learned to forgive myself because that young girl did the best she could with the information or lack there of she had. That young girl being the younger version of me. Yes I am now paying the price for all of her bad decisions but I can fix some of them and some things are gone forever and I realize I can live with that, mostly because I have to.
I was asked by one of the peer specialist how was I able to save myself and what prompted me to change. I don't really know how to formulate the answer to that. Maybe if someone was interested in making me a case study maybe they could figure that out. Maybe one day I'll be able to answer that question. For now I'm just glad I choose to survive and one-day thrive. So What's NEXT? I have no idea. I don't even know where I'll be sleeping over the next week. Will the place I interned at ask me to come back to work there? Will I be getting a job from this job fair coming up this Thursday? I guess you have to stay tuned just like I do.
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