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Finding Self (Part 7)

     It took me extra long to write this I left Pineville Louisiana almost a month ago. I never thought I would be in a place that I couldn't survive on my own without a car. I actually wanted to stay, southern hospitality is real. I didn't want to have to depend on everyone having to take me everywhere I needed to go if I didn't want to spend a ton of Lyft money. I also felt as tho that would make me a burden & a charity case. Maybe that's not how everyone else felt but that's how I felt. I also only had 2months with my host family and she extended it to 3months. I had to transition somewhere, I would've been down with staying at her house for a year but she said that she never had anyone stay with her that long before. 
   
  Here's the TEA, if your reading this and I told you my host was my aunt on my dad's side that was most def a lie. I didn't want people in my actual business & I also didn't want to talk about it. I'll state it here, the woman I was staying with was a part of the FFA program her home is used as a safe house or a bridge transition program. If you want to know what FFA is you have to go read FAREWELL FFA it's all explained there. I didn't want to talk about the mid life crisis that caused my partner to fold. I didn't want to talk about how I ended up in Los Angeles. I just wanted things to be simple, I came to Louisiana due to some marital issues & my family thought it best for me to go spend some time with my extended family. 

    There is some more TEA to this story but I'm not going to share it here. You'll have to read my WILD LIFE series for that. If you'd like to have WILD LIFE series Book 1 just email Aporhomebase@gmail.com it's a sliding fee donation pay what you wish. 

    N-E-way I moved to NYC & I'm staying in the Bronx until January. I'll be visiting my son & daughter while meditating that someday my oldest daughter will be reveled. That's another story though. To be truthful about my living arrangement while here in the Bronx would; I have decided be too complicated & too long of a story. It's interesting tho & you would def be like WTF sis! You know what I am going to tell the story about where I am but as I write this I know it has to go into the WILD LIFE series. 

   We never know what a person is truly going through if not told, we only see the surface or see what we want to see. It's the craziest thing that there are some people that walk around with darkness inside but still manage to shine brightly on the outside. I used to scream my pain in the streets but now I see no reason to because at the end of the day it's the end of the day. 

    I spent a lot of time alone in Louisiana due to my host's work schedule & because of that I learned to go within with a lot of my feelings. I also coped with my intrusive thoughts with some YouTube Stoic lectures. I find the Buddhist & Stoic way of living more understandable & manageable. I also have to be careful about beating myself up for not knowing these principals sooner knowing they would've changed the outcome my life.

    But nope we're not going to do that. I am going to take the new out look I am choosing to learn and dive deeper into it & continue to change the outcome of my new life. I'm going to end with some of the things I found fun about this part of the south. They have an arcade called WayBacks for $13 you can play mostly all the games. I was blown away by the size of this place. I didn't get to stay as long as I wanted but I did kick some ass in Mortal Combat & Tekken. I had to leave because of another WILD LIFE story. It's a must visit & a great place to throw a party. 

    When I go back I will make it a point to visit again Waybacksarcade. I went to River Fete in Alexandria, we arrived too late to be able to get on the Ferris Wheel & they were out of Alligator bites. I was able to get some hand cut curly fries & Lavender Lemonade. I saw a dog with the biggest head I ever seen & I also caught some of the live entertainment. Here is some more information about it RiverFeteAlexandria2025. I also experienced my first Madi Gras parade in Alexandria as well, it was a fun experience & I would've been hit in the face with stuff if I wasn't catching it. 

    Here's an article written about it MadiGrasAlec2025 I can't wait to go to NOLA for theirs. Now let's talk about the drive through Daiquiri places. You can get any kind of Daiquiri you want. They have great prices, the sizes are great too. I've tasted the Amaretto Sour, the Spank me & the Whiskey Sour. They have quite a few places but this is my favorite one in Pineville EastSideDaiquiri I went to Jenna Choctaw casino. The buffet slapped & I tried a frog leg that tasted like chicken "go figure" it was kinda rubbery. I did not win any money I'm not usually lucky in that way. I watched my host turn twenty's into hundreds real quick. I put my lil 20 in and lost. It cost her $60 to win me $55. I absolutely suck at gambling! Jenna Choctaw Casino.

     I experienced some of the soul food of the south at Pop's Place General store restaurant. The staff picked on me because I wasn't filling my plate with stuffing & black eyed peas! Two foods I don't understand y are foods. Everything was tasty & they had good desserts. Pop'sPlaceGeneralStore. Also their Marijuana wasn't bad either shhhhh it's still illegal there w/o a medical card. In conclusion living there felt like I stepped into a time capsule it felt like a cross between 1998 & somewhere in the 70's. I know weird combination but like Tupac sd "You got to be there to know it".  Thank you for taking the time out of your busy day to read this I love you for it! Have a great Day!

Places I wanted to go but didn't get to

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