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Fallen Leaves from the Family Tree

     Every family has fallen leaves on their family tree. My condolences to you all & I hope you found a way to push forward & pull through that trying time. This is a way to make sure my love ones are remembered. If not by anything else but pictures and words. 

    It was taking me some time to post this blog, I was trying to figure out if I wanted to give my grand mother her own tribute then I decided against it and am going to give my grand mom & grand pop a post together for with out them both I would not be here. 

    I'm going to start with G-mom. Her name was Janette Mclaurin Smith. I'm not going to go into where she was born, worked, or anything like that. I'm just going to say a few words about what she meant to me. When I was a little bean, between the ages of birth & maybe 12 she was my world. I lived with her until I was 18. I was split between my mom's & brothers home (more on that in another post). As I became a Teenager my interpretation of the world became far different than her's, not to mention the unhealthy ways I began to handle trauma. Our relationship became rocky & stayed that way until her death at 85. We were two people that loved each other dearly but she did not approve of the way I lived my life. At the end of the day it was what it was. My favorite memory is of us sitting together, on her porch, of the house she owned for about 23yrs. It was a bright sunny day, she was sitting in one chair and I the other. She looked at me and said, "I love you but I do not like you." I looked her dead in the face & said right back, " I love you but I do not like you either." We both laughed and just sat & enjoyed the day. I was about 30 when that happened. 


I don't necessarily miss her but I do pay tribute to her life & the strength she left me not to take anyone's shit! I have since learned to balance that in a healthy way❤  




 I will have to give my GrandPop his own post after all!



-Photo's by, Jodie Spartz


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  1. My condolences to you & your family, that is a very nice picture.

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