Self Reflection 2026 (Part 1)

Happy New year ya'll! If you are reading this and you've been reading since last year, I absolutely love you and thank you for riding along. I do this for you, to entertain you and to help you reflect on your own life and change whatever you want or need to change. My journey is far from over, I thought things were about to happen as simple as 1,2.3 when I arrived here in NYC. I had a plan, I knew exactly what I was about to do and I was confident that nothing would F it up this time! Boy was I wrong, nothing went the way I thought it would for 2025. Like everything fell apart so dramatically, I thought to myself; I must be cursed why does life feel like I'm being waterboarded everyday. Now what changed those thoughts was the same drama I was living.

When I arrived in NYC in June I was staying with a friend in the Bronx. I stayed there for two months. The plan was to stay until January, but I couldn't because those two months were the most anxiety ridden, panic attack having situation that I often find myself in when I do things my gut tells me not to. I made sure I got out of there and in August I moved into a rather nice shelter where I would stay until this present moment working on housing and fixing my credit. I was employed seasonally from July to November. Since then I've been on food stamps, medical and cash assistance. I attend a substance abuse treatment program 5 days a week. Through them I now have a therapist and my own Peer Specialist. I've been sober for 3yrs but I felt like I should go back to square one to get myself back on track. I know where the help is for me so I do my best to make sure I'm ok mentally, spiritually and physically.

Some people are either afraid to ask for help or they just don't believe the help is there. There are also some people that just live in a state of learned helplessness. They maybe uncomfortable in that state but they are so used to living it they think they can't get out. N-e-way back to me lol, I also have a career case worker, and a housing case worker. The staff at the treatment center is also super helpful. Everyone apart of my support team is super supportive when it comes to my life and my writing. I made a friend and absolutely adore her and her family. So here it is January 3rd 2026 and I am still in the fight of my life. Leaving the past in the past and accepting the future as my new way of life. I am excited to know what 2026 has for me and I hope the start of your year was amazing as well.

I also wrote and published 4 books this year, you can check them out here: https://www.lulu.com/search?sortBy=RELEVANCE&page=1&q=Jodie+Spartz&pageSize=10&adult_audience_rating=00

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