Finding the Alcoholics & Narcotics Anonymous program changed my life. Part 1
Am I ashamed to admit that for 16yrs drugs & Alcohol we're a major part of my life, NO! I found myself in Rehab's & mental health facilities due to my behavior. I lost my family & almost myself. This journey taught me an abundance of skills to be able to heal and start the journey to rebirth. I've been sober for 8 years & have learned much about myself. I'm still learning & growing. I'd like to share with you some things I learned.
- Turns out living Sober isn't gruesome, boring & uncomfortable as I had feared. It turned into something I began to enjoy & found much more exciting than my drugging days.
- No matter my intentions the outcome was always the same. I wanted to be one of those people that stopped on the first try, but the memory of pleading to God & the suffering that led to it faded; I relapsed & trouble was not far away.
- I've learned that there's no point in regrets, self pity or worrying about how I got this way. No good comes from the thoughts.
- A new me was mine if I wanted it. Why not give it a try & if I wanted my old ways again they were definitely there for me to start them all over. It's your right to take back your misery if you want it, I was told.
- I try not to let myself get so resentful toward someone else that I allow that person to control my life, especially to the extent of causing me to do drugs. I have come to the conclusion that I have no desire to let any other person run, or ruin my life.
- I have thought to myself; well if I do quit, the next few weeks or months may be rough. I encouraged myself by saying I know I have the courage to change & I also know I'll be in a better place for it.
- Because I didn't save my own life in time I lost the value of family & a lot of friends. I'm finding the new version of myself & healing what I can.
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